SRA and What Works

My efforts to survive failed and I died. I continued to breathe, eat, love, and work, all while living a dead life.

During this, God was my foundation, way back there. I was what appeared to be a good person. I did all the things I thought goodpeople did, with some mistakes. Still, I suffered internal and external torture.

My offenses could not justify the level of horror I was experiencing.

That is over, done finished and never coming back. Now I live a life that is better than my dreams. Lists of prayer requests have been approved and delivered in a much better way and timing than I could have imagined.

I still feel pain and have problems. But, I live this life fully protected, loved, and provided for. The Master of the Universe goes ahead of me, stays with me, and com!es behind me. I have a husband who loves me and has more resources than ever before.

1Currently, I am living my dream of full-time travel while watching my children come to the Lord. Smile with me.

Here are some things that I have learned:

1. God has to be the filter in which a person views everything.

With all of my efforts, I remained dominated by filth. I was getting sucker punched regularly. Nothing I did worked. I was gang-stalked at every job and relationship. I was set up to fail. And my children suffered with me.

Most of this was not a result of my bad decisions and behaviors. I did need to change them to get in line for healing. But most of the doors I had opened came as a result of wounds that I had hidden from myself.

2. When things do not add up there is missing information.

I will explain more about that. But, seeing my struggles as a spiritual war showed me that repentance blocked me from enemy attacks. This was the beginning of freedom.

3. Change, but do not waste your time trying to be perfect.

We were programmed to feel guilt.

Repenting for the sins that I was aware of propelled me into a place where I could heal. Yet, healing required dealing with wounds that were hidden from me.

It is not that I was committing evil deeds or being punished. It was because I had been mind control programmed in early childhood. It was not my fault. It was not fair.

Know that, self condemnation is a sin.

In a war zone, a person could die as a result of walking out of their front door. I was in a war that I did not know existed. I thought that I just needed to get myself together and my problems would be solved.

4. The enemy keeps us in fight or flight mode on purpose and gets a victory for every one of our knee-jerk reactions.

No matter what we do this is going to be hard. But only because we have to face what we do not want to face. These problems are not yours.

When we react naturally to enemy attacks he maintains a foothold on our lives.

5. The One True God is the only way.

There is no sign of anyone finding any degree of healing without giving it ALL to God. Many religions can put a band-aid on your wounds. But that will just delay your birth into a life of true freedom.

This means a person must keep their eyes on HIM. Take your place as a CHILD of God. Your problems are not yours.

6. “God is not the author of confusion.”

I had read this in the bible and heard it quoted. but when I applied it to my life I saw that God operated in an orderly fashion that is simple and clear.

7. It is not that complicated.

This seems impossible in the beginning. Our enemy is experienced at keeping us spinning. Some of us even have parts that are physically spinning.

The confusion is unbearable, which forces us to give it all to God. God simplifies and explains it all. He knows, not only what happened but, why and what you need to heal.

The enemy makes himself look more powerful than he is. What happened is not complicated. The confusion goes away when God is in control.

8. We were innocent children overcome by evil that we did not create or agree to.

Innocence does not mean without flaw. It means trusting. We were trusting and that was what the enemy sought to destroy with his series of betrayals.

I am not saying we should leave our doors unlocked. But, when we learn to trust God we snap back into place.

9. If you are searching for goodness it flourishes in a structured environment.

I was getting flashes while I was at work and with my son. This was insane and the enemy used it to confuse me. He prompts us to behave in ways that make us appear to be unreliable. He uses this to get us to discredit ourselves.

10. Confusion is a part of our enemy’s strategy. When It goes away he loses power over you.

God had me schedule a period every day in which I was to process the flashes. He told me to file away the memories until this time. I failed at this, a few times. But, he did not leave.

11. It did not take a lot of success on my part for him to do wonderful things for me.

With HIM massive wounds healded instantly with just a few words from HIM. He showed me what happened, why, and what happened to my parents that they had become people who could agree with me being brutalized.

12. It’s compassion that heals bitter roots.

God showed me what happened to my abusers that caused them to be able to hurt children.

I did not want my abusers to get excuses. But that is not what happened. I just saw it for what it was and he healed rot that was put into me, against my will.

13. God turned the confusion into conclusions.

I started getting these flashes of memories that confused and horrified me. They were unthinkable but in God’s hands, they began to explain the mystery of why my family was packed full of insanity. It was the beginning of closure but it had to be structured.

14. God was with me preparing me for healing my whole life.

Everything that I had to face was not painful. He reminded me of all the times I had faced my abusers and how he was teaching me little skills that he would expand on later when I was ready.

15. All my efforts to solve these problems on my own were destructive. I was simply reacting to the enemy’s programming.

We were programmed to behave badly if we remembered.

What we experience is designed to be too much. It breaks us into pieces. It is too much for any human being. But it is not a challenge for God. I was so over my head for so long. The enemy is a cleaver looser. He knows that he can not, will not, and has no chance of overcoming the All-mighty God.

16. God will appeal to our logic.

He explained to me why it happened. Why me, why my family, and why the struggle had dominated my life? What I did do wrong? What I did right and Why he was so faithful to me.

He helped me file away a big ball of insanity and brought the memories back to my mind in an order that he knew would work for me. He brought light into darkness and in the best order.

17. The enemy has blocked typical ministries from being of any benefit to SRA survivors.

In deliverance situations, the minister’s job is to listen and obey. No thoughts or actions should be their own. That is a tall order for any more humans.

Most often they are simply following general biblical standards.

The enemy indeed needs a person to open doors to spiritual attacks. However, SRA survivors can have bitter roots that are hidden from us. We can be living good lives and still be opening doors to the enemy.

Stop feeling guilty.

SRA is no doubt the worst of evils. We could not process what was happening to us and fragmented. People who did not experience this can not understand it either.

18. Bitter roots are often the primary door that SRA survivors open to enemy attacks.

They are the easiest for the enemy to hide from us.

We don’t even remember what happened to us. How would we even know who we need to forgive? God understands this. Ministers do not stop seeking people out to deliver you.

We also have parts that search for a sense of self-power and influence us to wicked thoughts that are also hidden from us. This requires us to sit with God and work through it.

As the faith of the core person builds it changes all parts of the person. Even if these parts are doing witchcraft, they change when you change. They seek safety and when they see that what you are doing works they do not forget. We just all want to be safe.

19. Ask for the forgiveness of sins both known and unknown and move forward.

This will block attacks. Also, know that even when a person is in repentance and protected the enemy will come around and yank your chain. Know your authority and rebuke every disturbance in your peace.

20. We are war veterans and in a position of great authority.
21. No progress happens until a person gives it ALL to HIM.

22 . Our enemy used the same strategies on all of us.

When we share our healing with others we are sharing it. If a person can see that a trick is a trick it loses power over them.
Our experiences differed somewhat but the strategies were the same.

23. Blocking out all the evil meant blocking out all the miracles.

He was with me during the abuse. I knew this then, it was undeniable.

Jesus, God in the flesh thought me worthy of his effort and physically came to my rescue. fragmenting caused me to live many years without having this in my conscious mind.

We did nothing to deserve what was done to us. All that is required to receive the reciprocal is surrender. Which is hard. I surrendered and took parts back but after the first miracle, I went in line for the next.

Jesus suffered a painful death not just to get us to heaven but so that with him we have the power to overcome anything.