For those of us who have been ritually abused life seems unstable. We were dominated to such an extreme way. It is hard for us to feel safe because in our childhood we were dominated. But this is true to a large degree for everyone.
We know that loved ones die. We also know that regardless of the amount a person has on a savings account they can become penniless in an instant. Natural disasters come, often without warning. Life can be scary.
I just do not do this anymore. I have decided to skip it.
The ability to skip over all the unsure aspects of the human experience came when I gained an understanding of control. There teachings explained their way of thinking This started when I examined the core motive of my abusers. Understanding this helped me heal but it also taught me about how to deal with the uncertainties of life.
They were just trying to find safety. After, I refused to renounce Jesus they tortured me. They would hurt me and then say, “Defend yourself.”. After multiple sexual assaults I went into a range only for them to feed me with a false hope. They said that if I were to join their way of life, they would teach me how to defend myself. They believed that their way of life was one in which they found safety, in magical defense.
I did not buy it. They were the ones that were hurting me. I have throughout seen how unstable human exitance can be. However, I never forgot that while being confronted by horror I had been championed by Jesus. He came when I called on his name.
I have seen more defensive power than I know how to understand. Nothing, not even the highest of Magic can compare.
Applying that to the experiences of the public Is not hard. I am not long in a situation where I can be tortured by the Occult. However, I face many of the same insecure aspects of human existence. On a regular basis I have to remind myself to rejoice in all things because I know that the All Mighty God is in control. He is always in control. He allows us to make mistakes and he allows me to pay the consequences. But he never leaves.
This becomes more profound that most people understand. I take my life in season, just like everyone else. I am however able to laugh through the season of that seem uncertain.
I have said many times that those of us who were ritually abused get a front row seat to the Glory of God. This is more that I can fully comprehend. Our creator made the whole earth without having used his upper body strength. His Glory reaches beyond my problems and he will set all things good and right in the perfect timing and way.
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